THE INNER ETIQUETTE OF BEING

HUMANITY, A FETUS Evolving to Birth Thornless Roses

My birth announcement saw me on the petals of a rose. Many seeming strangers aided my birth process which had my mother three days in labor. It was the longest ever at that time in a major NYC hospital.The theme of SSS- seeming stranger support- and the spiritual rose with its painful thorns would dictate my life process.Did Mom resent me for getting so much attention? When the nurses acknowledged her for bringing such a beautiful child through, she shrugged and said-”only another baby” My uniqueness was crushed immediately yet my birth announcement saw me on the petals of a rose. The nurses named and called me “the rose” during her ten day stay at Lenox Hill Hospital. My parents not having a name for a girl, instead called me Donna. Michael would have been my name had I been the third boy. A psychic person once told me D is for devastation! It sure seemed that way till I was able to be the prodigal who removed herself from a stringent Achtung like Germanic family where there was periodic neglect, much denial and emotional abuse, all roots for grand gratitude learning and growth. My earth trip has led to what I conceived very early to be lotus learning. I was horrified and ashamed to be German. When I heard about the holocaust as a young child I became terrified. I was born the first day that the horror of the reality of the concentration camps hit the news, an environment that would follow me for life and give me a deep and electric sensitivity to any abuse of power. It turns out of course to have its gifts. I silently cried throughout my early years, however, about these atrocities. As a young child when noone was home to unlock the doors I would either play in the earth mother making mud pies and or go to skyfather in the huge white marble Catholic Church down the street.

I felt as if I was guilty of the Holocaust so it was very relieving to sit near a confessional and hear the priest tell people how many Hail Marys to say to relieve their guilt. I was not brought up Catholic although my Mom was Catholic growing up.( She grew up in German, Karlsruhe near the Black Forest. She same to the states to escape Hitler as her parents thought she would be in political trouble in no time with her big mouth. She married my Dad when she was vulnerable and alone after having scarlet fever and an appendectomy. He was a gentleman and drove her home and opened the door of his vehicle to her. He had been divorced before divorce was so regular in or around 1925. All I know about that is a story from one of his brothers. He said it was a marriage to my father but not to the female journalist who used him to get a visa out of Germany to America.

I early learned what it was like to be treated as if you were not perfect and could be discarded readily. It seems to me very early that the issue with the Germans was that they were wildly unable to see the perfection in each Being.

Humanity must evolve into this and if a few hints in that process are received by a few, from what seems to becoming a kind of memoir, I shall be satisfied.

I shall forever be grateful for what I call the SSS-Seeming Stranger Support,those that saw my rose nature and perfection.

This included a wonderful teachers two outstanding psychoanalysts, and a psychoanalytic teacher who interrogated the most dangerous Nazi war criminal and who later became my beloved husband.

He passed when I was 47 and the loss was very palpable for many years. It became abundantly clear many years later that it was time to mature into a more authentic Self. The feeling of security he so easily brought to to me opened the doorway to firming up inner security. We had many wonderful years together talking about the goodness of life but always intertwined with speaking of the abuses of power we saw every day in our professional practices and in the psychoanalytic movement itself and in the injustices that continue to exist within the framework of humanity.

The time of transition is upon us. The shift is from survival functioning to the glory of purpose filled lives based on

INNNER SECURITY OF SPIRIT CONSCIOUSNESS.

The shift is within us, in every cell of our bodies.Dumbed down it is entirely genetic. Humanity has no choice but to move with their intuitive Spirit and the gifts it brings.

THE ROSE WITHIN ALL OF US,OUR SPIRITUAL NATURE IS

HUMANITY’S HOPE FOR A HIGHER NATURE. IN SHORT

I HAVE FOUND ROSE TO MEAN THE PATH OF

RELYING ON SPIRIT EXCLUSIVELY.

THE TIME IS UPON ALL OF US FOR TO GROW INTO OUR SPIRITUAL ROOTS WHICH CAN BE SEEN, UNDERSTOOD AND EXPERIENCED IN THE AUTHENTICITY OF THE MUNDANE LIFE..